Chaos of post-being consciousness

I wait in the chamber, in a prision
Behind the bars, seing the distant Sun

Its light is shining for me in the last time

Twilight skies look at me so deeply

As I always in my life looked at them in a glance

Simple things, boring moments are so special to me now

Twisted thoughts transcend my reason

 

I know there is no more chance

The priester is bringing the chiming bell

Each toll reminds a mistake in my mind

What under the ground am I going to find?

Metaphysical idols free me from unavoidable reality

That I created myself and whose tormentor is the guilty

Beyond the firmament I believe there are sky and hell

 

Nature now conspires against

It’s time to regret

No one will forget

My legacy of pain, fear and rage

Purification comes only throught the calvary

New coexistent journey is going to start

Ending up the suicidal life race

 

The human constitution catalyzes the natural reaction

Strongest world process, because of criminal process

Result of my damned actions, for my own progress

Just to live and buy, in order to socialize

My material dreams realize

My forced status falsely disguise

It’s not enough to be just alive

 

The executers are coming

I have to go without goodbyes

I can’t see anything with the blindfold eyes

Will my soul know the owner?

Discover the cause of my coming?

Beyond the time and space

Where unreachable thoughts are taking place

 

Now a dead body lies on ground

With shot holes losing blood

My flesh will feed the worms

The soul moves to the labyrinth of doubt

Fly away to freedom or fall down in the abyss

Bright of forgiveness or eternal flames of suffering

Dancing on the fire trident, chance of changing was left behind

 

Thanatos leads me to Erebus

Afterlife with Hades in Tartarus

Let’s drow and swim forever

Acheron, Phlegethon, Cocytus, Lethe and Styx

Tortured soul dreams to get free someday

As my past victims must get free from my evil

Will I be safe by the priester’s pray??

 

Sacred words won’t deviate

The expensive path I myself chose

Living parasite, violent prowler

With appetite for power

Pleasing my artificial needs

Hallowed be the justice

Discipline and punish

 

Would I live this life eternally?

Eternal return, changing only the appearance

Each sand of this immutable hourglass repeating

The death makes me reflect on my stupid existence

The end justifies my means and daunts my beginning

Is there a new hope for a better redoing?

Or is my nonbeing over simply?